Hold....Move

I've had a number of times in the last couple of months where I've wrestled a little bit with God. The older I get the more inclined I am to ask His opinion, rather than figure everything out on my own...a good thing. Until you don't like the answer! However, I've also learned that being where God wants you, in life, is the best place to be even when the going is tough. I've found that when the going does get tough it is the greatest comfort knowing that God is with me every step of the way and that the tough stuff must have a greater purpose.

So it is, that the tough stuff in one particular instance must have greater purpose for me. God his holding me in a ministry that I'm struggling with a little bit. Interestingly I keep getting an absolute, no questions asked NO to my pleading for an out...even a temporary one! I was talking with a good friend the other day and I commented to her that it'd be nice to kind of 'know' what's behind it all. I don't want to know all the details....just a topic will do! Sticky nose, aren't I?! But I've often thought that an inkling or a time frame would make things a little easier to bear. I suppose then, that my focus would not be so much on trusting God completely, would it?

In complete juxtaposition I have another ministry opportunity where God has been prodding me to move. When God starts stirring in your soul and whispering to your heart and then presents you with the opportunity for that very thing, you just KNOW this is a 'meant to be' kind of thing.

As Dh and I have chatted over these things and I've shared my frustrations, thoughts, fears and a whole range of other emotions, his logical and initial responses have been the opposite in many cases, to God's direction ~ when I've finally sought it. I know Dh is looking at things and seeing how each situation effects me. He sees how busy I am and is concerned for my wellbeing.

I've been finding this quite an interesting discovery ~ that man's logic and rational thoughts, and very reasonable responses are not the ways of God. Man's rationality and logic seems to be in opposition to God...even when we are followers and lovers of Alighty God. I am being impressed upon with the knowledge that it is imperative that I must seek God's guidance rather than lean on my own understanding. For even as one who has an intimate relationship with her Creator, I am not naturally in step with His ways.